Post-op Day #3
I haven’t cried about our situation with Devin since we’ve been here, but today is the day. Today’s second x-ray confirmed that now both of Devin’s lungs are not doing well even though he is still on the ventilator. I feel guilty for complaining as we still have a baby with a beating heart. Things were a little more bleak down the hallway here in the ICU, which should always just make me grateful our room is not the one overflowing with doctors, & staff.
But here on day #3 of post-op, we are just a little discouraged. Sitting here watching numbers on a screen go up and down, waiting for x-ray results, and test results, and trying to calm a baby whose voice you can’t hear crying; just gets heavy. Maybe we had our expectations too high; maybe we thought we’d somehow sail right through this, but the Lord seems to have a different plan than we did. Shocking, right? The eternal God who holds the world in place, each atom in place, seems to have had a different plan in mind for finite little us. We can only see the here and now, and don’t know much outside these hospital walls.
We are aware of God’s goodness and his many graces to us during this time, and we are so grateful. Our heart, bodies, and minds, are nonetheless exhausted from the stress of all that goes on through these long days living at the hospital…again. Tonight we ask for prayer for strength of heart, and peace as we continue. We had started the day with hopes of Devin turning a corner by making some progress, but it seems we have stepped backwards yet again. Would you please join us in boldly praying for Devin’s lungs to pop up and a clear x-ray tomorrow?
Last week before surgery, our church shared two quotes from the current sermon series, and both of these could not be more true of what we are going through now;
“The plans of God rarely play out like we think they are going to”. And “God is working behind the scenes in secret and ceaseless care”. That is what we must cling to tonight, and as we start this new week.
But here on day #3 of post-op, we are just a little discouraged. Sitting here watching numbers on a screen go up and down, waiting for x-ray results, and test results, and trying to calm a baby whose voice you can’t hear crying; just gets heavy. Maybe we had our expectations too high; maybe we thought we’d somehow sail right through this, but the Lord seems to have a different plan than we did. Shocking, right? The eternal God who holds the world in place, each atom in place, seems to have had a different plan in mind for finite little us. We can only see the here and now, and don’t know much outside these hospital walls.
Last week before surgery, our church shared two quotes from the current sermon series, and both of these could not be more true of what we are going through now;
“The plans of God rarely play out like we think they are going to”. And “God is working behind the scenes in secret and ceaseless care”. That is what we must cling to tonight, and as we start this new week.
Dear Heavenly Father, you have written in your Word that we should ask for the things we want. Father right now we are asking you to heal Devin's lungs and that they will pop back out for a clear X-ray tomorrow. We love him, we love this family, and we love you. Please wrap your arms around them so they can actually feel your arms of mercy, Grace and comfort. I pray that the doctors who are working with this family are getting good rest so they can have clear minds to know how to comfort Devin and his loving family. All these things we ask in Jesus name. Amen.
ReplyDeleteAmen! Thank you so much Brittney! I'm so grateful for you!
DeleteCovering you in prayers. Every moment Jesus brings your sweet family to mind.
ReplyDeleteThank you so much Beth!
DeleteSending you and Dan big hugs! Praying for Devin and your family.
ReplyDeleteWe love you guys.
I recently was browsing those "inspirational" memes that can sometimes remind one of posters from elementary ( "If you believe it, you can achieve it!") when I came across one that one that hit me that day and it's stuck with me. It was a beautiful picture of Jesus and Peter on the water that said, "The God who calmed the storm and sea can calm the storms in your life." We KNOW this but it's one of those things we interiorly take for granted. It made me reflect on all kinds of things: "what constitutes a storm in my life--am I trusting Him in every little thing? Why does He care about all my storms?! Increase my faith, Jesus!" I am not surprised by all that God can do--He is He. I AM unceasingly shocked in awe and adoration of Him though, by the fact that He CHOOSES to love us and move mountains. As you said, he holds every atom in place, and He adores every molecule we're made of. Keep knowing deeply, you are all not forgotten, in that hospital, in that little room.
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Nik
I love you. That made me weepy. I need to frame it. Now, if you could in fact get us the poster "If you believe it, you can achieve it" we'll post it on the ceil for Devin to stare at in bed. Also, wasn't that a lyric to an R. Kelly song? I believe I can fly!
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DeleteWe don't know each other but I am praying for your sweet baby boy today, that our Almighty God would completely heal his lungs and the x-rays would look great, and also for God's assuring and comforting presence to be with you all. You are a strong mama with such a precious baby.
ReplyDeleteDevin is such a brave and beautiful little fellow. I can't imagine the depth of pain you feel, but I know Our Lord Jesus loves Devin and your family. Praying for the breath of God to fill Devin's lungs; and for His strength for all of you.
ReplyDeletePraying for Devin's lungs to be open and clear. Dear Lord breathe into his little lungs and help them to work along with his heart! Please bring healing to his body. I also pray for strength and a strong sense of Your presence as You work out your perfect will in love for this precious family that loves and trusts you.
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